Do what you wish with this,
For it can only be used once.
Die with it in your hands,
Or leave it in the dust.

Drain as much blood as you can,
If a slow death is what you wish.
Take a razor or a knife,
That is one way to end your life.

Take a bottle of pills and shut your eyes,
If sleep is how you want to die.
Lay on your bed as peaceful as you once were,
And leave the world with just one word.

Jump off somewhere high,
If the attention of death is what you want.
Have your body splattered on the sidewalk,
Just as little kids walk to school.

Shoot yourself in the face,
If metal is what you crave.
Close your eyes and sit back,
Squeeze the trigger and relax.

This is your guide to suicide,
Choose how you want to die.
the book has been checked out thousands of times,
And another name is added to the list of people who want to die.

When skies turn black,
Theres no turning back.
You made your choice.
You made your task.
As you walk up the hill.
You feel a chill.
As you jump into the river.
You feel your last shiver.

I'm lying on my bed
with tears in my eyes
i guess i should be thankful
your not telling me lies

music blares in the background
but my thoughts are to loud
of this broken heart
i could never be proud

i need someone to save me
before i fall to hell
you tell me it'll be OK
but i know i will not be well

they say take your meds Alexis
it'll stop you crying
but what you don't realize
is it wont stop me dying

I'll give you a smile
hold my head up high
its funny cause you don't see
how much i wanna die

if i tell you I'm bleeding
will you say "oh babe, its OK"?
cause you know it wont ever be
don't go waiting for the day

you'll never see my hurt
and maybe thats alright
then you wont understand
why i die tonight

so close your eyes
whisper my name
and just remember
my hearts not a game...

im hurting all over
i miss u so much but now ur gone
why was it time for you to go
why now when i need you so
you were mine and you always put a smile
on my face but now your gone
and you'll never come back to
me and that baby i cant live without
i cant live without a day when im not with you
how do you think im gonna live without
you forever?
i'll miss you a hole lot and i cry all night
but i still wish you well here
and i pray a lot but it doesnt change
no matter how much i ask
i dont think i can go on with this strong
feelings for you i have right now
i need to see you honey im gonna go
to right now and stay with you
forever..................
so please when you come to see me......
and tell me that you love me..........
like you use to........

I smile and you smile right after me
When I told you I love you i meant it
and you also told me you love me
but I didnt feel anything when you said it
did it mean anything to you as it did to me
why did u say those three little word and still
have no feelings in them
all i felt in them was nothing, it made me sad
those words had no feelings
why say those words without love in them....

love without any in them

As the angel stood over the grave she began to cry,
little child among st the soil why do you die?

the little child appeared and said life really hurt,
and that she found peace among the cold hard dirt.

the angel then whispered you broke the heart of your mother,
and you destroyed the future of your little baby brother.

i would send you to heaven but its just your not strong,
so to hell you must go because suicide is wrong

The tears won't come.
No matter how hard I try.
Even thinking of your face.
I never seem to cry.

It's harder this way you know.
It wasn't meant to happen like this.
Your smile your voice.
It's your laughter I'll miss.

The memories won't go away.
Haunting me in my sleep.
I want to forget the past.
But forgetting would make me weak.

So I'll suffer through the days.
Trying to just make it through.
You see my friend, You will be missed.
And there will always be someone thinking of you.

You were here, but now your gone.
You went up there and turned to god.
you looked at him with your pretty eyes,
And that's when you realize
Your in heaven up above, you've done your share and shared your love.
looked down at us with a great big smile trying to let us know to let you go,
For it was worth awhile.
You know that we love you we won't let you go,
for it's hard and that,
you know.
You turn around,
leave everything behind,
Go start a new world with us..
In Mind

I just got home from preschool,
Granny got me like you said she would,
I want to be grown up one day,
Be old like Gran is today,
I got dressed up in daddy's shoes and tie,
We're playing cops and robbers inside,
In your drawer I found a gun,
This game will be so much fun,
I shot Gran.
Bang Bang.
Just like they do in the movies,
But mommy, why isn't she moving?
She hasn't got up, doesn't she know the rules?
I surrended, but she still won't move.
Their is red stuff every where,
But it's just ketchup, like the teacher said,
You didn't even help her up,
When you came to pick me up,
You cried and called the police man,
Mommy, why are they putting her in a bag?
I'm sorry mommy, I didn't mean it,
I won't play that game again, I promise.

Would it hurt you,
if I cried?
Would you come to my funeral,
if I died?
Would you put a rose on my grave,
if you knew I tried?

I know now that,
you would not mourn my death.
Why would you care if I'm dead?

You were just a person passing by.
That's what you always said.
So you wouldn't care if i was dead.
Well I guess I'm alone tonight,
as a reminder of our last fight.
I know I will not survive throughout the night.

I also knew you never cared.
So I guess I was just scared.
Now I refuse to be scared.
I will not fight my thoughts anymore.

I know that to live you have to die...
and to die you have to live.....
But what happens if you never lived?
Does that mean that your bettter off dead?

I know that no one ever cared bout me,
and no matter how hard I try,
I will die to only to know that I have never lived.

Sadly you died too young,
you drifted away.
I never knew I'll live without you,
it's the truth I say.
Though you're gone,
I can still feel your touch everyday,
wait for me, up in the sky,
'cause one day I'll come to stay.

Please don't cry at night about things we never did,
don't hurt your mind or body because I no longer live.
It was not my choice to go and I'm still longing for your care,
but please don't shut out all the others you have a joy meant to be shared.
Take away that frown of yours
your smile brightened up my days,
write me notes in your journal how you wish I could have stayed.
So, please don't shed a tear,
remember all the times we had,
get back into your schedual I didn't want to make you sad.
Remember I'll always be watching from heaven up above,
and if you're ever feeling lonely
just recall........ you were loved.

I'm so confused in a world of hate,
I just want everybody to wait
Let me grow up
Let the world roll along
Just stop all the insults
From my classmates

Is this my fate?
To forever await the end?
To scream in my head
The pain I feel so deep inside
The hurt, the names, and all the lies

I'm so confused in a world of hate,
The pain I have , so very great,
I long for the end
If only people knew
all I ever needed was just a friend

But now I see the end approaching
and now I can leave this world of insults and tormenting
and go home.

I went to a party, Mom, I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom, so I drank soda instead
I really felt proud inside, Mom, the way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom, even though the others said I should.
I know I did the right thing, Mom, I know you are always right.

Now the party is finally ending
Mom, as everyone is driving out of sight.
As I got into my car, Mom, I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me, so responsible and sweet.
I started to drive away, Mom, but as I pulled out into the road,
the other car didn't see me, Mom, and hit me like a load.

As I lay there on the pavement, Mom, I hear the policeman say,
the other guy is drunk, Mom, and now I'm the one who will pay.
I'm lying here dying, Mom.. I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom? My life just burst like a balloon.
There is blood all around me, Mom, and most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom, I'll die in a short time.

I just wanted to tell you, Mom, I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom. The others didn't think.
He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank and I will die.
Why do people drink, Mom? It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now. Pains just like a knife.

The guy who hit me is walking, Mom, and I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying and all he can do is stare.
Tell my brother not to cry, Mom. Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom, put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have told him, Mom, not to drink and drive.

If only they had told him, Mom, I would still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom. I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom. When I needed you, you were always there.
I have one last question, Mom, before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive, so why am I the one to die?

A Heart of Gold Stopped Beating,
Two Sparkling Eyes At Rest,
God Broke Our Hearts To Prove
He Only Takes The Best.
God Knows You Had To Leave Us
But You Didn't Go Alone,
For A Part of Us Went With You,
The Day God Took You Home.
To Some You Are Forgotten,
To Others You Are The Past,
But To Those Who Loved & Lost You,


Your Memory Will Always Last.

Some memories are elusive, fleeting, like their butterflies that touch down and are free until caught.
Others are haunting.
You would rather forget them but they will not be forgotten.
And some are always there.
No matter where you are, they are always there with you.
I feel like most memories are better untouched but I think it's better i go back before i go forward in life.

i hope you like this speech ^_^